KFC Katy's ICQ Details
19 February 2001
I no longer wish to meet any new people on ICQ. I am tired of the emotional strain caused by getting tangled up with other people, who eventually all fuck you over, whether intentionally or not, in a time of my life where I am only just coping with everything that is going on around me, I am emotionally driven enough that any further stress could be enough to make me snap.
Quick Summary
- Music people join ActiveList 103348928.
- Boca Raton people, fuck off unless you meet the criteria below.
- Anybody looking for a partner, if and ONLY if you fit the below criteria then I would be interested to talk to you.
- Everybody else please leave me alone. I do not want to talk to you anymore. I am too stressed out.
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If you are interested in music radio on the internet or want to know about KFC Networks, do not add me to your list. I will deny your request. Instead join ActiveList number 103348928. If you need help with this, go to http://kfcnetworks.iscool.net and click ICQ ActiveList.
Boca Raton residents
If you live in Boca Raton or the surrounding area, I am looking for one friend so that I am not so lonely here. Here are some criteria :-
- First of all I am a transgendered M2F androgyne heterosexual, so if you cannot deal with that then don't bother messaging me.
- I am not interested in going out with you if you are a man. 90% of the people I have met on ICQ from Boca Raton have been freaks who just want to fuck some young girl, which is why I am setting these criteria.
- I am not interested in partying with you. I am not telling you my address. I just want somebody that I can go have lunch with from time to time and be friends with.
- I would prefer to meet a female as I do not feel so comfortable with men.
- You will be a broadly normal (for want of a better word) but interesting and intelligent person with no hidden agenda.
Ideal Partner
I have recently identified a set of qualities that make up my ideal partner. I list these below for your information only. The chances of you being my ideal partner are incredibly slim. If you think I sound rare, that's because I am. If you think that you match these qualities, then you almost certainly don't. The following is an incomplete list.
- You will be a female.
- Your age is irrelevant to me. I once met a 14 year old girl in Georgia who was incredibly mature. We had a very nice time. I have also met 30 year olds who are so fucking dumb you wouldn't believe it. So I will not judge you on your age.
- Your appearance is irrelevant to me. What I mean by this is that I will not judge you on your appearance, if you are tall, short, thin, fat, black, white, pretty, ugly, paraplegic or whatever. Never judge a book by its cover. I would also expect the same courtesy from you. In terms of physical attraction however my preference is for short-ish white girls of any vaguely sensible weight. If you think you are too fat, you probably are not. If you think you are ugly, you are probably pretty. I do not care about your breasts or your legs. When we talk my eyes will be focussed on your face.
- Your location is irrelevant to me. I will fly anywhere in the world to find and be with my ideal partner. I will move there if necessary. I am not tied to any particular location. I already travel frequently by air to visit people I know from online. Distance is only an obstacle if you make it one. Distance means nothing to me. However, if you are American, you are at an advantage as I like American girls best.
- You will be honest and upfront. These two qualities are separate but go together to make something very important. I am not prepared to waste my valuable time on people who are going to bullshit me around or not tell me the whole story. That eliminates a significant portion, probably 98-99% of all potential partners. You will continue to be honest and upfront whatever situation arises between us, as I will to you. I know from experience that I have only ever met I think, 2 people, in the last 21 years, who have been capable of such a feat, one of them is now my best friend and the other, is not. The only true test of this comes when some difficult situation does arise between us. Just being honest in general is NOT enough. You will be truthful even if it hurts.
- I am an incredibly affectionate person, more so than anyone else that I know. Most people say they can deal with that, but, they really can't. They tire of my affection after a while, then I become frustrated that they do not want to receive it and problems arise. If you cannot handle receiving continual affection, you are not my ideal partner.
- Sexual compatibility: I am much more affectionate than I am sexual, so you should not be addicted to sex, and you should not expect to make love unless we really were in love. I am not that kind of person. Sex does not interest me in the way giving other kinds of affection like kissing and hugging do. Additionally, I do not look at sex as an opportunity to 'get each other off' but as a love-demonstrating exercise. Making love will be slow and long and soft and gentle. It will not be fast or rough or rushed. The best part of making love is the cuddling afterwards.
- I am very romantic in mind but I often find this hard to express correctly. That's just a side note.
- You will be quiet and calm and polite and respectful. I am not interested in going to parties with you. I go clubbing occasionally, mostly for the music and to dance and release some tension (I like trance and dance music). We will go to places together and do things together and enjoy each other's company. You will not cuss like I do, but you will put up with my cussing and you will show me to be more polite and quiet like you are. You will teach me to respect other people and to respect life in a way that I have lost over the course of many years. You will instill calmness and warmth into me. You will take away my sharp edges.
- You will be smart. You do not have to be a genius or use big words, but you need to be able to take knowledge and apply it to a problem or situation. If somebody asks you to do something slightly challenging that you have never done before, and you can do it, then you are smart.
- You will have common sense. I do not have much common sense so I need balance in this respect. I had one girlfriend once who was a really dumb fuck in this respect, she did not have a clue about anything and that was funny for a while but eventually it just became stupid.
- You will be objective and rational as much as possible. You will be able to analyse situations from an outsider's perspective, taking into account all the factors that you are aware of and reach a sensible conclusion.
- You will have intuition, intelligence and good reasoning ability. These are all inherent qualities needed to satisfy the above items.
- You will be mature. This is very important. So far I have only met 4 or 5 truly mature people of my age. There are alot of aspects to maturity, but I think that, if you are truly mature, you understand the difference between mature and immature, so I do not need to explain it. If you do not know the difference, you are not my ideal partner.
- You will have integrity. I do not wish to date a criminal, a back-stabber or someone who contradicts themselves. I do not claim to have any integrity whatsoever.
- You will not be arrogant or bossy, but you will accept my inherent arrogance and bossiness. I hope that you will teach me to become more negotiative so that we can learn to talk to each other smoothly, make compromises where necessary, avoid arguments (especially petty ones), and become equals in the balance of the relationship. We will have a 50/50 say in our relationship and we will be able to resolve disputes amicably.
- You will accept me for who I am, and as a result of this, you will also be incredibly understanding. I am a very deep person, I have mental scars, both self-inflicted and externally caused, I live my life constantly on the edge of the divide between genius and insanity. They say "the difference between genius and insanity is measured only by success,". Sometimes I go over the edge. I have mood swings. I do not give a fuck about pride. I am a creator, I think in abstract concepts that most people do not even know exist. I am extremely intelligent and I am fully aware of that, therefore I sound arrogant. I have goals and priorities, I know what I want and I have determination to see it through. I push all limits and boundaries of my life to find my comfort zones, what is acceptable and what is not. I do not give a shit about society. I do not give a shit about society's concepts of right and wrong (morality). I do not give a shit about society's definition of normal. Society is just one context, but I do not care for society, I live in my own context, a context that is right for me. I believe all people should do the same. You will accept that I will live my life however suits me and I will accept yours too.
- You will be open-minded and non-judgemental, as will I. This is also very important. I cannot stand people who judge without all the information.
- Sometimes I like to dress as a girl because it makes me feel better, this will not bother you, even if we are dining at a restaurant or walking round the shopping mall together.
- You will not be indecisive. Indecisive people piss me off alot.
- You will be a generally tidy person. I make a mess sometimes but it always irritates me to the point where I have to clean it up before long. I try to stay tidy generally. You will also be reasonably well organised, but not excessively so.
- You will not have a short temper. You will help me to control mine.
- You will not be excessively selfish.
- You will not have to be overly-dependent on me but I will be able to depend on you.
- You will be extremely loyal to me, I will be extremely loyal to you. You will get very jealous if you see me talking with another girl, and I will get jealous if I see you talking with another guy, but at the same time we will trust each other implicitly.
- I am very emotional. I cry alot because I am sad, because I am happy, because I don't understand. I get very attached to people very easily if they suit me, I am getting better with that but I will become very attached to you and you will be happy that you make me happy and eventually reciprocate the attachment.
- I am impatient and rude and you will tolerate it. You will teach me to be less rude.
- I am sometimes lazy and sometimes energetic, more often lazy. That will not bother you.
- You will lie in bed with me in the mornings and cuddle. You will let me hold you as you go to sleep at night.
- My unique heightened awareness of everything going on around me makes me very sensitive about alot of things, and gives me cause to be very happy or very upset on different occasions.
- You will support my creativity.
- You will not complain that I spend too much time on my PC, though my partner will always be far more important to me than anything I can do with a machine.
- You will not want me for my money or any other material items, even though I will probably have stacks of it by the time I get married.
- I am an atheist but open minded to alternative views. You will respect my disbelief in religion and not be offended by it or try to change my views on it. I will, however, completely respect any religious beliefs you may have.
- You will be able to handle a long distance relationship for a couple of years. But when we do visit each other, we will make the most of our time together. We will visit each other often. We will pay half each for airfare and other travel expenses unless the situation demands otherwise.
- We will be able to open up to each other completely. We will be very close friends.
- I am a pessimist. You are an optimist. You will show me how to be optimistic.
- You will not be the type of person who says "does my bum look big in this?", "men are all the same" or other stereotypical and sweeping statements that some women say. In fact, I do not want you to be like a normal woman in society's context. If you are like a normal woman, you are definitely not my ideal partner.
- You will take me seriously. I will take you seriously. You will not flatter me with bullshit like "we will be together forever". This is clearly not true, so why say it in the first place? If you are the kind of person who says things like that, you are not my ideal partner.
- You will not make false promises. You will not give me unrealistic expectations.
- You will not be a drug user or an alcoholic. I do not care if you drink sometimes or smoke. I am not a drug user or alcoholic. I drink occasionally, I do not smoke.
- You will be the kind of person that understands that, when we have an argument, that proves we are close and you will want to resolve it. If you think that having an argument means the relationship is over, you are not my ideal partner. You also understand that relationships are not smooth rides, and we will argue from time to time.
- You will not care what other people think. Nobody's opinions matter except yours and mine.
- You will not be dependent on me to protect you or be manly for you. I am a feminine person. You will not be bothered by my strong sense of femininity. I cannot stand up for you in a fight.
- I do not benchmark people, I do not treat two people with similar characteristics as the same person. Just because guy X has done Y to you before, does not mean that I will too. You will recognise that people are individuals and treat them as such.
- You will be single, or you will become single for me. You will not have children. But you will want to have 1 or 2 children in the future. I have trouble with the idea of bringing children into a world as terrible as this one at the moment. You will help me to see that the world is not a terrible place.
- You will not cause me unnecessary stress. I am on the fence of breaking point already. I cannot take anymore. I emphatically and definitely DO NOT WANT ANY PARTNER who is going to cause me any unnecessary stress whatsoever. I am frightened that bad things will happen if this is the case. You will provide only happiness and relief from tension, and love and trust and warmth. You will radiate good feelings to me and I will radiate them back. You will accept all my flaws and defects and I will accept yours.
- You will have a much better attitude than me, and you will help me learn to adjust mine over time.
- The criteria for my ideal partner are subject to change at my sole discretion at any time. I do not have to inform you when such changes occur.
- If you are too lazy to read this entire page carefully then you are not my ideal partner.
- You will spend quality time being affectionate with me every day. Quality time means time set aside just for the purpose of giving affection to each other to make each other feel good and show each other caring and love. This is not a morning and goodnight hug.
- You will let me make you the number one thing in my life and give you everything I have to give, you will let myself become engulfed in you and you will merge with me in a similar way.
- You will expect nothing from me. I will expect everything from you.
- I will be completely and unerringly loyal and faithful to you at all times.
- I will love you and care for you to the absolute best of my ability with all my heart.
- I have found you at last. I wasn't even looking. And 56 is a multiple of 14, too.
That's it.
Have a nice life,
Katy.